Gundah gulana

Saya lagi dirundung perasaan gundah gulana :( :(

Kalo dia emang sibuk dengan sak-gedambreng aktivitas (kerja, kuliah, magang, choir, futsal, dll) harusnya tetep bisa bikin balance dengan hubungan antara saya dengan dia. Itu sih harapan saya. Dari hati yang paling dalam, saya sujud syukur ke Tuhan karena akhirnya nih akhirnya si dia bisa magang 3bulan di tempat kerja yang sesuai bidang studinya. Puji Tuhan juga kalo dia masih bisa kerja part time di tempat bikin sandwich itu juga. Trus puji Tuhan juga kalo Tuhan kasih kepercayaan sama dia buat melayani jadi member of choir di gereja. Puji Tuhan puji Tuhan. Smuanya ini (sumpah) saya syukurin. Kalo sekarang keadaan nya jadi bikin dia semakin sibuk, saya cuman minta supaya paling tidak bisa bikin hubungan saya dengan dia juga dalam keadaan yang baik. Kalo bole, komunikasi telepon dan sms juga jangan dibatasin atau di"menit"-in. Sedih banget kalo ternyata si dia mbatesin waktu untuk bisa komunikasi dengan saya. :,( In my opinion, sesibuk apapun si dia, kalo emang cuman bisa diselipin waktu telepon-teleponan 30mt (SEMINGGU) ASALKAN berkualitas (which is no fights and no aras-arasan waktu ngobrol) tetep bisa bikin hati saya tenang dan nyaman. Lah sekarang, udah coba telpon-telponan tapi yang ada selalu direspon aras-arasan dan disambi pula sama kerjain tugas dia laennya. Oh nooowwwww! Sedih saya, asli sedih!

Tuhan, kalo emang ini sekarang yang mesti dijalanin, tolong ya Tuhan supaya semakin kuat buat ngadepinnya. Kalo emang akhirnya komunikasi saya dan dia harus terbatas, ya udah Tuhanm gak apa-apa. Tolong juga agar Tuhan selalu beri kesehatan dan sukacita buat kami masing-masing agar walopun less contacts, kami bisa tetep happy dengan cara yang laen.

Amin.

1st month in January 2012

Been a while since the last time I posted on my own blog.

HAPPY NEW YEAR...!!! :) May we all always be happy, healthy and succesful.

Happily telling that I spent short holiday with papa, mama, and lil' brother in Bangkok in 28 Dec' 11 - 01 Jan' 12. Browsed so many cute stuffs at the street market and Chatuchak, had food exploring tasting popular street snack and popular food there, watched Calypso Show, and tried riding up Tuk Tuk hehehe ;p Oh I gotta say that Bangkok would be my well-planned next destination. I loved it!

Happily saying that finally I was able to celebrate our 5th anniversary day with Mr. D. That was the first time I could spend the whole night on our day with him since he was always far away from me from the first time we had this relationship. We had dinner at Sushi Tei then spent lazy time at my home til midnight with him. Oh how I really really loved that moment! All I remember was he was treating me with much love and care that day :) In turn, I gifted him a nice pair of shoes which I bought in Bangkok. You like it, don't you? A'he.

And. . .

Finally, I'm surprisingly engaged now. I didn't know when he exactly proposed me. I just remembered when the other day after picking me up from work, he showed me up (on purpose) a set of couple rings in his car. Oh mo! I was extremely shocked for I didn't imagine that he would do that. I got myself caught surprisingly by his surprise. I might have been the happiest person in the world that time hehee. And, I remember that I asked straight to him too many questions so I had him confused to answer all those questions. One of them was "When will we use these rings?". Then he replied me, "Just wait for the right and formal moment". I think I might have become such a lil kiddie who would be overly happy after getting chocolates from a mommy. Eventually, we happened for real to have our engagement ceremony last Saturday. We had it humbled at my parent's home and there were only his and my family celebrating. I thank God as in the beginning of 2012, one of my wish had been fulfilled unto His way. Hopefully, this lil' step will be a strong commitment to face our relationship ahead.

Thank you for the wishes, mates! :)

Our rings

After the ceremony

Mr. D returned to Perth yesterday, back to his studying and working life. Pretty sad to see his back leaving me at the airport. In a blink of eye and a wave of my hand, he left me. See you around, dear! Nothing beats the satisfying feeling when you're around me physically. I miss you a lot as I love you.

FRUSTRATED

It's been such a tough and hard condition for me to face. To be honest, I didn't imagine to have such this relationship. Been in a LDR with my man. Almost 5yrs with no certainty plans in terms of our future. Basically this happens cause he planned this to us since the very first time we were together and it seems like he is the one, creating every story in us til now. It was his decision to stay far away from me, tried to reach his Master degree and have work experiences and get a PR and so on and so on. And so, may I say this is like a SH*T? :,( Ive been crying for weeks and weeks, hoping the best way to God , but there's still no good answers. For all this, I won't give up hoping the best to God. I will always ask His strength as I do believe in Him (including His beautiful plans to me).

I've been trying to hold on this relationship eventhough other people surrounding me disbelieve that this relationship will end up beautifully for any reasons. I'm giving my high respect to them who have advised me and shared their good thoughts & opinions with me. And to be honest, by listening and thinking straight on people advices, actually I have a bit doubt as well to still go along with my man. But, it doesn't mean that I'm gonna give up on this relationship (FOR NOW). I'm still thinking hard on what good decision to make is. Oh God, why do I have to keep on thinking and thinking? Let the good ways pop up in my mind as I will believe that it's Your voice delivered towards me to do.

Deep inside my heart (and out of my logic mind), I have always had a strong belief that Mr. D is the best man and life partner for me who was sent by God to be with. I mean it!

Kokododomeo

Kokododomeo, di hari terakhir sebelum kembali ke habitat nya di negara kangguru

Bye again, Mr. D!

This is his last day since he came here, having a short holiday 10 days ago. Time flies so fast! and I hate that.

For 10days he was here, I felt like I was equipped with so much care and attention from him so I could truly feel heaven on me. Thank you for every laughs, joys, and a bit tears that we had together. I was indeed hypnotized by the way you treated and by our togetherness during your days here.

I've always found hard for me to let you go. I never wish to be parted far away from you. But, I realise that this might be something good and promising for us to run.


I just wanna say a beautiful good bye to you , Mr. D! :,) See you around!

AK

Tuhan tolong saya :,( Tuhan tolonggggg. . .

Sesuai sebutan si Doe - Gre, saya memang lagi kalut sekarang. Sebutan mereka untuk saya adalah AK (read : "ae-ke") yang artinya ANAK KALUT. Dari kemarin, saya memang menjadi sedikit diam dibanding hari-hari biasanya.

Tiba-tiba saya ingat what mama said the other days, "Ria, jangan jadi perempuan lemah. Jangan minta dikasihani orang. Minta kekuatan sama Tuhan tiap kali kamu punya masalah." Kalo kayak gini, saya jadi pengen mama ada selalu di samping saya. My mama is on her holiday away from home. Ma, have fun ya di Syd, kalo pulang nanti tolong peluk saya. Harapan saya, saya bisa tetep kuat dalam masalah saya ini sekarang. Semoga ada jalan saya bisa berkomunikasi lagi dengan Mr. D. Jauh dalam lubuk hati, saya percaya Tuhan pasti kasih jalan dan buka hati kami masing-masing untuk saling memaafkan. Saya berdoa selalu Tuhan beri saya kekuatan saat ini untuk sabar dan setia sama seperti Tuhan sudah beri saya kekuatan untuk menjalani LDR.

Mr. D, whatever you do, wherever you are, tolong ampuni saya kalo saya punya salah dan menyakiti mu.

Note to Mr. D

Welcome October!

It's even hard to explain my condition right now. I guess I'm being in the lowest point of my cycle of life. Talking about faithfullness, I think I ve been faithful getting along with this relationship for almost 5yrs since first we decided to have a LDR. And, I will say that I will keep loving him no matter whata as well.

Love is something to decide not always to think. Though it's over now, hopefully we still can have a good relationship each other. I knew for sure that we'd both put up our best effort to work on this til we decided not to continue this relationship.

All from the past will be memorized beautifully in my mind. I'm not leaving this relationship empty-handed. So many good things to learn and to remember. I wish nothing but the best for you, Mr. D :,) Thank you for getting along with me for so many years. I'll remember what you said.

PS : Dear you, I regret that we didn't talk last night in good way to say bye each other. If you're free please reply email. Good luck for your future. Pray for me so that I can bear any conditions might happen in the near future. :)

Update news

Yesterday was a sad day for me and workmates. One of BDE teams decided to resign himself from work suddenly. Mas Fimsssssss! :( back then I was in my first day, he was the one whom I talked to a lot. He is such a good and friendly friend. I was too shocked hearing the news that he was going to resign due to his illness. He's got his very serious stomach ulcer so it requires his attentions intensely.

"Mas Fiman, janjiku padamu, akan kujaga selalu bolpen kita berdua! Get well soon, Mas"

Moreover, at night I had a bad time when me and my man was debating something seriously. OMG why its getting harder and harder for us to get through this cirumstances? Ive been trying to understand God's plans in my life and hoping for the best to us. All I'm asking to God for now is just to give me a huge strength to let this tiring relationship go on. No matter how hard my days are, please keep teaching me to be thankful to You.

Campur aduk

Hari ini mungkin jadi hari yang paling bikin perasaan kacau. Baru denger kabar seneng dikit, eh dapet kabar buruk, eh trus dapet kabar seneng, yah akhirnya dapet kabar buruk. Gak tau mesti gimana, kalo mau mikir seneng nya aja, tapi kabar buruknya juga gak gampang dilupain. Ya Tuhan....

Bangun pagi hari ini ngerasa excited banget soalnya tau kalo Ciang bakalan sidang TA di kampus. Janjian sama Lenny akhirnya mutusin ke kampus buat kasi dukungan ke Ciang. Sampe kampus, udah ada Devina (temen SMA saya yang selalu naksir Ciang sampe sekarang alias cinta mati mungkin ya hehheee). Si Ganda nyusul juga ternyata, kita barengan nunggu Ciang sidang & berharap yang terbaik. Nah, sampe akhirnya kita dapet kabar gembira segembirah-birahnya kalo Ciang LULUSSSSS! Nilai TA nya AB which is so good! I congratulate you, Ciang. SO, your complete name is Bayu Setio, S. T. Alaahhh gaya banget sekarang ada Sarjana Teknik nya at last part. Sihiiiii :p

Nah, habis denger Ciang udah selese sidang, tiba-tiba pengen aja gitu nanya kabar Mama-nya Devina. Yah, mengingat dulu dari SMA sampe kuliah semester awal-awal gitu, saya les privat bareng sama Devina gentian either di rumah saya ato di rumah dia. Mau gak mau kan jadi kenal deket sama mamanya. Tiap kali les di sana, selalu ditanyain, "Sudah makan, Karia?". Trus trus, Devina crita kalo mamanya kena kanker payudara. I WAS TOTALLY SHOCKED! Gak nyangka dulu mamanya sehat banget padahal. Ternyata udah kanker stadium 3 dan njalar sampek ke bagian ketiak. Astaga! Payudara sebelah kiri udah diangkat sampek ke batas ketiak juga. Sampek sekarang masih tetep chemotherapy, udah jalanin 6x terapi, dan masih harus tetep terus terapi. Devina juga bilang kalo rambut nya udah rontok parah :( Yang bikin kesian juga, Devina udah ditinggal sama papanya sejak kelas 4 SD gitu. Jadi mamanya single parent yang besarin Devina dari kecil sama adeknyajuga (sekarang masih kelas 1 SMP). Ya Tuhan, bless them. Tolong berikan kuasa kesembuhan buat mamanya Devina ya Tuhan supaya bisa sembuh dan punya kesempatan terus menjaga Devina & Vicky. Tambahkan hikmat kesabaran juga buat Devina buat setia merawat mamanya. Rencana-Mu indah ya Tuhan :,(

Barusan ini, waktu mama pulang kerja, mama kasih bad news kalo Mbok Karlin meninggal. Singkat cerita, Mbok Lin itu ikut Oma & udah ngasuh mama & kakak-kakak nya mama (Kel. Rotikan-Piay) dari mama masih usia 1 bulan (masih bayi merah). Sampek Oma sudah meninggal pun, Mbok Lin tetep setia ikut mama. Tinggal di rumah ini, Mbok Lin tetep maksa bantu kerja pekerjaan rumah tangga, padahal mama selalu bilang supaya Mbok Lin kerjain yang ringan-ringan aja ato kalo perlu gak usah kerja sama sekali. Mama juga selalu inget pesan Oma buat jaga Mbok Lin terus karena jasa Mbok Lin yang juga gak terbalaskan gitu intinya. Baru kira-kira tahun lalu, mama udah gak tega ngeliat Mbok Lin tinggal di rumah ini karena udah lemah banget sampek akhirnya mama minta Mbok Lin tinggal aja di rumahnya istirahat menikmati hari tuanya. Mau pulang balik ke rumahnya aja Mbok Lin sama mama nangis sesenggukan. Mama udah anggep Mbok Lin kayak sosok mama sendiri jadi mama sayang banget lah sama Mbok Lin. Nah, Hari Minggu kemarin, Mbok Lin kena serangan jantung hebat. Mama dapet kabar dari cucunya Mbok Lin, si Mas Deka. Mama langsung shocked dan sedih seharian. Tadi siang mama sempet jenguk Mbok Lin di rumah sakit, dan mama cerita kalo kondisinya kesian banget. Mbok Lin badannya kurus banget, udah gak sadar, dan paru-parunya yang berfungsi hanya 1. Waktu mama dateng, Mbok Lin mungkin tau jadi jari-jari tangannya gerak dikit. Mama sempet bisikin, "Mbok Lin, ini aku. Mbok Lin cepet sembuh ya. Jangan kuatir nanti aku yang urus smuanya. Terima kasih Mbok Lin selalu jaga & pelihara aku dari aku masih umur 1 bulan sampek aku sudah jadi seperti ini." Denger mama bisik ke telinganya, mama lihat Mbok Lin kayak mau maksa buat bicara tapi udah gak sanggup. Setelah mama dateng, Mas Deka cerita kalau kondisinya Mbok Lin terus ngedrop sampe akhirnya hari ini pukul 18:20 Mbok Lin meninggal. I burst into tears hearing this bad bad news. I couldn't be more shocked.

May you rest in peace Mbok Lin. Sosok wanita sederhana yang setia mengabdi kepada keluarga Rotikan-Piay sampe akhir hayatnya. Sampe kapanpun, kita semua gak akan bisa ngelupain jasa Mbok Lin. Gak bisa lupa tiap hari Mbok Lin gak akan makan malem kalo kita semua belum kumpul lengkap di rumah. Gak bisa lupa juga kalo Mbok Lin selalu dateng tiap Lebaran bawa kue wajik. Tangisan sedih dari mama, papa, kakak, ria, sama rico gak akan bisa mewakili rasa sedihnya kita ditinggal Mbok Lin. :,( :,(

But then, ada kabar sukacita lagi dari sodara sepupu, Kak Siska, yang ternyata unexpectedly is pregnant. Udah 1 bulan 1 minggu lagi usia kehamilannya. Congratulations Kak Siska & Kak Ray!! What a great blessing from God. Walopun kalian punya rencana menunda kehamilan, tapi nothing can beat God's plan loooohhh hehehe. Saya ikut bahagia, kakakkkkkk!

Webcam

Had a web cam session with my man last night. Finally! I could see how he looks like by now. His hair which was cut too short, now turns into longer. As long as we've been into this LDR, the one who always asks first to have a web cam session is me. When I ask him to do that, he always comes up with thousands excuses to avoid. Like on the other day when I asked him, then he replied with an excuse for it was too dark and cold in his room. Hah? It just was some reasons that truly created by him haha. I didn't hate it, but somehow I wasn't just pleased with any excuses every time I bring up the idea of having some random talk in video call. Ya ya ya.

I liked our conversation yesterday though. He shared me a link to Brian McKnight album, horayyy. That was cool. I've downloaded and listened to it. Took for about 4hrs to get that album yesterday. Sigh! We never can rely on Indonesia's internet connection. Yucks!

Oh dear, I'm longing for another video call session yah. Don't you dare to avoid me! Hahaha.

At the mean time, he was singing showing his choir song to me in a weird tones. OMG!

This is was when I pointed asking on his moustache. Feel like trimming it up hahaha.

I had a great sunday today!

I can say today is one of the best day in my life. I had a quality time with my family. We cooked and had our lunch together then we spent time watching tv. This barely happens to us as my parents get busy almost everyday. And also thank God that we could go to church together on the afternoon listening to the words of God. It was delivered beautifully therefore I could get the essential meanings from that. Hopefully, it will remain in my heart and my soul forever.

Aside from that, I just talked with my man via skype. I was sharing lots of things with him. I would be so relieved if he could acknowledge what problems bothering us. I find it difficult to talk with him in a serious way when I come up with the topic about our hard relationships. He's going to be lacking a clear direction of our topics :( But, still I was happy to hear his voice and have some random talks with him anyway. Thank God.

Keep praying to God. He knows what's the best for us though it's not going to happen in our life in a good way. Hail to the King as all powers and strengths are His.

God did not drop you into the world utterly defenseless and empty-handed

You arrived fully equipped

-Max Lucado-

"...."

Kalo tau bakalan less calls ato less chats gini, mungkin dulu gak bakalan ambil keputusan buat jalin hubungan kayak gini. Saya sedih sekali. Ternyata maintaining LDR itu susahnya ajubilehhhhhh :( Saya tidak bermaksud menuntut lebih, tapi menurut saya supaya hubungan bisa tetap terjalin baik, harus ada konsistensi komunikasi yang dilakukan atas kesadaran masing2. Bukan begitu?

Tapi, setelah tuker pendapat sama pacar, ternyata ada pendapatnya dia kalo gak bisa telp yah gak usah dipaksain. Sebenernya setuju juga! Tapi based on MANY MANY experiences that has happened before, kelamaan gak kontak dan terbuai sama kesibukan sendiri bikin kesadaran buat melakukan komunikasi itu gak ada. Beneran gak ada! I thought we're supposed to do this together in so many ways.

Yah sudahlah, saya pasrahkan saja smua pada Tuhan. Kalo memang kondisinya gak bisa dipaksakan sekarang, saya yakin pasti ada waktunya komunikasi itu bisa terjalin lagi. Lewat banyak hal yang terjadi, saya belajar untuk lebih peka terhadap suara Tuhan. Ya, suara Tuhan yang akan menunjukkan langkah apa yang harus saya ambil terhadap hubungan ini. Saya tetap bersyukur dan merelakan kondisi ini boleh terjadi.

Saya bersyukur.

Another surprise!!

Eh eh tadi barusan, yang berarti pas tanggal 7 Juni, saya dapet surprise lagi. Yang ini surprise nya bikin seneng tapi juga bisa sampe ketawa geli-geli hahahhahaaha :D. Sebelum masuk ke inrti cerita, kan saya udah pernah cerita kalo saya punya temen maen dari kecil, si Shieby, Dinar, Jessica. Saking deketnya dan sama-sama gilanya, kita namain grup kita itu SKDJ hahahaha, singkatan dari nama masing-masing. Nah, tadi itu saya dikasi surprise sama mereka, si badut-badut pokcan ini.

Ceritanya, selese mandi (sekalian keramas) jam set8an malem gitu deh, saya kan ganti baju di kamar. Ritualnya agak lama sih kalo abis mandi trus ke kamar, ya mesti pake baju kan pasti, trus pake toner + lotion muka, pake body lotion, pake vitamin rambut. Pas lagi asik bergulat sama ritual-ritual itu, kedengeran dari luar kamar ada suara cekikikan cewek-cewek ribut gitu dari teras rumah. Bikin penasaran sih, tapi yah udahlah dicuekin aja, kali aja rumah tetangga depan.

Ehhhhhhh....

Sampe akhirnya, pas baru mau pake lotion muka, pintu kamar dibuka dan datanglah sosok keempat badut-badut ku ituuuuu. Mereka bawa kue taart plus nyanyi lagu "Selamat Ulang Tahun" bernada sumbang. Asli sengaja disumbang-sumbangin! Sialan kan. Kaget banget, IYA! Rambut masih basah, pake baby doll, muka masih belang belonteng (lotion belum diratain), eh udah didatengin. Trus tiup lilin nya juga pas di kamar sekalian. Ahhh tapi seru banget! :,)

Trus ngobrol-ngobrol plus curhat-curhat an di ruang tamu gitu deh. Dapet kado juga dari mereka, ada buku sama kartu ucapan. Kalo kumpul kayak gini sama temen dari kecil, baru berasa banget kalo ternyata uda pada gede-gede. Pas ngobrolin soal zaman dulu, yang satu pernah naksir guru sekolah minggu tapi gak dianggeop lah, yang satu pernah nangis darah diputusin pacar waktu SMP, yang satunya genit paling doyan eksis di acara gereja, yang satunya lagi nekat sok-sokan naik motor (padahal masih belum bisa) trus nabrak pohon sampe ditolongin pendeta cakep lah (euwww yang ini malunya gak nahan pasti!), dll hahahahaha. Parah-parah lah zaman dulu :D Yang bikin seneng sih bisa share masalah masing-masing. Yak ampun, udah gede-gede beneran lo ini sekarang! Si Shieby yang notabene calon pendeta, te'tep jadi moderator bok sekaligus penasehat hehehehe.

Janji yang terucap dulu : KITA BEREMPAT NIKAH MASSAL! *oh men! seriouslyyyy??!!*

Janji yang terucap sekarang : KALO MASING-MASING MENIKAH (KECUALI SHIEBY), PAS PEMBERKATAN NIKAH, SHIEBY HARUS JADI PENDETA YANG PIMPIN LITURGI PEMBERKATAN NIKAH, dannnn KALO SHIEBY YANG NIKAH TAHUN DEPAN, KITA BERTIGA YANG PIMPIN PEMBERKATAN. hahahahahahaaha :D

Kado buku Max Lucado

Kartu Ucapan

Saya masih ber-baby doll ituuuuu

Terima kasih ya teman-teman badut ku tercinta :) :) Kalian sungguh menghibur hehehehe. Tadi kan saya juga sungkem sama kalian tohhhh :* Seneng juga lo bisa share bareng-bareng lagi. Doakan saya ya! *ting*. Oh oh makasi lo memuji kue lidah kucing ku enyaaakkkk, muachhh.

Oke, kurang 3 menit lagi jam 00:01AM which means it's sunday already. Nah, sebelum keburu tanggal 5 Juni 2011, saya mau mencatat perjalanan seharian saya selama tanggal 4 Juni 2011. Masih hangat-hangat tai ayam (hiiii uuwwwhhh) buat bahas ulang tahun saya.

Hari ini, diawalin dengan bangun jam set10 pagi. Ohhh tidaaakkkkk! Saya kelewatan jadwal buat ke kampus mau ambil ijazah + transkrip, ya sehubungan dengan mohon bangettt ke BAAK buat translate-in itu dokumen ke bahasa inggris. Bahasa inggris saya jelek, gak jago lah, jadi buat translate-in ke inggris saya menyembah mohon bantuan kepada bapak/ibu yang berkompeten. Aduh balik inget tadi pagi jadi pengen njambak-njambak rambut sendiri lo! Ini gara-gara tidur jam 2 pagi itu apa kemarin malem. GRRRRRRR!

Ya udah lupakan sejenak penyesalan gak bisa ke kampus, saya bergegas sarapan lalu membersihkan kamar. Tidak lupa setelah itu mandi, gosok gigi, gosok braces juga, cuci muka, lengkap deh pokoknya. Yukk. Habis mandi, si mama si papa dan si adek bilang kalo ternyata uda ada rencana mau keluar cari makan. Ahhh, ini pasti mau merayakan ultah saya. A'he! *jempol gedek buat mama papa adek* :D

Beneran eh beneran, ternyata ngerayain makan di Eat & Eat. Gak tau ini tempat kok jadi kayak happening banget lately. Mungkin karena Surabaya agak katrok ya, gak punya foodcourt kerenan dikit. Mohon perhatian sekilas tentang Eat & Eat! Baiklah, saya mengawali dengan lokasi. Lokasi putkort ini ada di Jl. Basuki Rachmad, sebelah TP, persis sebelah showroom Nissan & Volvo, buat lebih persisnya lagi gedung bekas Gelael. Dapet ya dapet? Nah, naik eskalator ke lantai 2 deh. TARAAAAA : kita bisa menemukan putkort ini. Konsepnya mirip semiripnya kayak Food Republic di Sinciapo. Recommended dishes nya : Mie Pok Singapore, Nasi Pedas Bali, Es Mango Thailand, Es Durian Monthong :) hehehehehe.

Oke. Balik lagi ke acara tadi siang. Saya sekeluarga sampe di sana jam 13:30PM, tentunya setelah jalan kaki dari TP (berhubung parkir mobil di TP hahaha). Bayangkan panasnya Surabaya ditambah perut yang meronta-ronta, bikin gak sabar buat melahap semua yang di sana. Habis cetak + top-up kartu, perburuan makanan dimulai. Tadi saya makan 1 main course, 1 snack, 1 appetizer. Enak enak enak! Yang paling berkesan tetap Mie Pok & Es Mango Thailand. Asli itu JUARAAAAAAAAAAKKKKKKK!

Setelah makan, lanjut deh balik ke TP. Berkelana mencari hiburan untuk mata lelah. Gak menyesal! Saya dapet kado 1 dress dari mama. Kata mama, "Ini kado lo ya! Sudah jangan minta yang laen lagi. Gak ada uang!" Cukup menggambarkan bagaimana mama saya yang cantik bisa berubah jadi kayak ibu tiri di sinetron cinderella. Mamaaaaa, masih pengen liat tas, jacket, sama loose tee. Ya nasib ya nasib, uang pun saya tak ada (nasib pengangguran) jadilah saya menerima hanya mendapatkan 1 dress. Terima kasih maaaaa! *hap hap tepok tangan peluk mama*

Lanjut lagi perburuan makan yang kedua, sekitar jam 17:30PM. Wahhh, fully stuffed up with good food. Thank God! :) Menclok lah saya sekeluarga di Dome. Saya makan Chicken Moza (semacam steak) plus minumnya Mango Affogado (bayangkan mangga diblend sama yoghurt, ice cream vanilla plus tambahan vanilla powder, nah!). Beugh!! hari ini perut saya tersenyum manis manja sekali.

Sudah menyerah dengan keadaan perut yang membuat lemas enak dan berefek tak berdaya juang mengelilingi TP lagi, saya sekeluarga memutuskan pulang ke rumah. Home sweet home.

Hari ini saya akhiri dengan menulis blog ini. Sebelumnya, saya berkicau kacau dengan pacar via skype dengan bantuan koneksi internet yang super bodoh dan irit bandwidth. Dikit-dikit "halo! kamu ngomong apaan?", "halo! aku gak dengerm suaramu putus-putus". Yah, bukan internet indo kalo enggak kayak gini. At least, 1 jam an saling berkicau (eh saya yang lebih banyak berkicau ding!) bikin adem ayem malem ini hehehhe.

Yak, saya mulai capek juga ini berkisah tentang sehari ini. Saya tidur dulu.

*pesan iklan* "Indahnya kebersamaan dengan keluarga dan indahnya makanan enak membuat hidup ini menjadi indah. Sungguh indah"

Sekian.

Thank you for the wishes I've got!

Oh yeah. Just passed through my birthday. It's 0:34AM now, and I've been thinking about the essential things of my birthday. I still don't get something special on my birthday. Flat anyway. Let's say, yes I'm 24 now. Been in a long-distance-relationships. No jobs. Haven't got my own financial independently. My future is still absurd for me. I just felt this is something I have to deal with eventhough this is not really like the conditions I dreamed about. I used to dream, starting at my 24, I would have a good job with a good salary, a settle relationships, and an adequate savings. Nah, right now, the truly fact is none of them I've got. Danggg! Well, that's life. It must go on whatever it's like. No matter how old you are, you have to still fight for your own life. What should I do then in my new age? I don't even make any new big resolutions. Just keep thinking on how to make my life happily through hard and easy circumstances. The older the age, the more plans and thoughts you gotta think. So, what I got (a lil' part of my thoughts to figure out the meaning of my birthday) was just to try letting everything happen naturally in my life, keep giving thanks to God for how my life is now, and keep fighting for my own happiness.

Well, yesterday was so great anyway. When it was still 11:21PM on June 2nd, my man chatted me saying happy birthday over YM. I found it surprising. My birthday even hadn't started yet hahhaaha.

He's not a romantic man ;p

Then, after I had woken up in the morning, I got a simple note on my lil' table beside my bed. It was my mom's writing on the note. It was also surprising me. :)

Really makes me love my mom deeper :)

And here is the finale. Before my day ended up, I got a nice package from my brother. Never expected of getting something from him, but on this my birthday, I thought he was just kind for gifting me such a lovely dress and necklace. It was wrapped on a very eye-catching package.

I've already known what to wear on my birthday dinner soon :D

Aside from my long thinking about the meaning of turning into 24, I thank God cos He's been good to me and will always be. I hope He will always give me the maturity of heart and mind as I will be getting older every year and I will be gifted by Him more and more happiness in my new age. Amen. Oh, at the end of my post, I would like to say thank deeply to my dearest family and friends for having greeted me by calling or texting me, wall-ing on my FB, and tweet-ing on my twitter. I'm grateful being surrounded by lovely people.

Have a good rest tonight.

I'm officially home

I'm home right now and so my holiday is officially over. Somehow I feel it's good to be back home hehehhee. I arrived at Juanda Airport at 12. Waiting for claiming baggage was not enjoyable at all here. People were very rude and acted like they were in a rush so they could cut the queue easily. I couldn't even speak of anything when a not-too-old woman cutting the line right in front of while I was still on the line, gonna grab my 28 kilo luggage. Oh geez, I wish I could slap into her face. Grrrhhhh!

It was also a great surprise for me to see my bestiest, Lenny, Cliff, Ganda, and my brother picking me up at the airport. They had been waiting for couple hrs to meet me. Hugged them tightly. Oh, got shocked as well as I saw Cliff's been losing his weight constantly since he was on a healthy diet combined with regularly exercises. I can say that he's more handsome right now. A'heee. :p

Then, they offered me to have lunch together at Leko Iga Penyet. Wooo, without any longer thinking, I would say absolutely yes to their offering. I'd been craving for Leko since I couldn't find any ribs as delicious as Leko's one. Had a chat, gossips, and stories with them while eating. It's been always making me feel good when I can spend some time with all my bestiest sharing tears and laughters together. I missed them A LOT!

And finally, when I got home, it felt so good as well when I saw my small room was still clean and organized beautifully. My mom did it for me as she knew I would come back home.

On the top of my story today is hugs from my parents. No other hugs could beat the sweetness of hugs from my parents. I missed them as well. We hugged each other tightly.

Fiuhh, gotta back to sleep again. I think, I need an 11-hr sleep like I had once in Perth on the day right after the sportscamp hehhehe. Hope it will happen to me all this night long.

Unexplainable feeling

I feel stressed. Yes. This is the fact that I'm stressed. I can't even explain what and how is the exact feeling I feel. I've been trying to be relax and let everything go naturally in my days lately, but it's hard sometimes to free my mind from my stressful thoughts.

In a couple of days, I'm going back home. The other times, I felt not going back home. I have to admit that I enjoy my days here spending most of my time by myself, doing whatever I like and I love, learning how to cook better and better, going around and shopping also by myself, and having quality times with my man. These make me feel staying here longer. But, I know that still I must go back home.

Thinking over about how my life will be after this makes me crazy. Should I look for jobs (again) in Surabaya with low salary? Sigh! Should I apply for a working holiday visa so that I'm able to be back here? How long would it take to do LDR (again) with my man? These questions have been poppping up in my mind. Oh geez, I pray that all the best ways in my life now and later will be it unto You. I might not be strong, but I'm not either gonna let myself down due to my fears. Everytime I had a chat with my mom, she always told me to keep thinking positively and taught me not to worry a lot. In this condition, I wish that I could have my mom physically around me hugging me.

Well, it's 4 days to go. I'm coming home.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY , my man!

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY, dear Mr. D !!

You're not getting older, you're just getting better. I'm wishing you a very happy and fun birthday today. May all your dreams and wishes you wish today turn into a reality. Amin.

Weekend minggu kedua di sini

Seneng sih di sini bisa ketemuan terus tiap hari sama pacar. Yah walopun ketemuan cuman beberapa jam doang, selebihnya dia kerja ato gak tidur, oh dua lagi, nonton bola PLUS maen PS3. Sembunyi di balik alasan mesti kerja buat cari duit & cari hiburan sendiri hahahaha. Ohmaigottt, ini 2 minggu aja aku di sini *merinding*. Bentar lagi ane pulangggggg.

Oh ya, weekend kemarin (paket : Sabtu & Minggu) agak garing, yah tapi gpp lah dari pada plonga-plongo kan. Sabtu pagi jam set8 berangkat capcirrr ke Canning Market deket rumah. Yang dibeli sih cuman mangga sama semangka hahaha. Trus mampir ke toko Asia gitu beli astor, hello panda, pokka green tea, sama sambel ayam goreng nya ABC. Kangen cemilan indo bok hehehe. Trus mampir juga sih beli spare ribs sama pink snapper. Pulang dari market langsung balik rumah, taruh barang belanjaan atur-atur di kulkas, eh tancap lagi ke Fremantle. Siang-siang jam11 lah sampe sana langsung ke tempat tujuan , makan ramen di Dosuki Japanese Noodle. Si pacar bilang itu ramen paling enak di sini. Nunggu hampir 15mt an langsung duduk makan Prawn Tempura Udon sama Tako Ball. Si pacar makan Prawn Dumpling Ramen.

Prawn Tempura Udon

Japanese Tako Ball

Enak kok emang ramen di sini, yang punya ternyata orang Jepang asli ya, sampe bungkuk-bungkuk gitu kadang-kadang. Habis makan ramen, pulang rumah bntar trus si pacar langsung kerja lagi. Jam2 an berangkat soalnya mesti kerja dari jam3 sampe jam10 malem. Nah kan ya kerja gila lagi. Malem jam set11an gitu kita berdua bikin Snapper Curry, what a big supper! Resepnya pacar sih hehehee, jadi dia yang masak , saya hanya back-up saja bersihin snapper, kasih lemon + garam + merica, potong tomat, that's it! hahahaha. Boleh percaya boleh enggak, enak looo. Sriusan! :)

Snapper Curry Ala Chef D

Trus hari minggu nya, si pacar kerja jam7 pagi sampe jam set3 siang. Mestinya minggu siang kemarin mau rencana pergi lihat Good Vibration Festival 2011 pulangnya dia kerja. Si pacar harusnya book ticket minggu pagi online, eh tapi ternyata setelah chatting-chatting sambil dia kerja, final decision nya jadi : CANCELLED. Alesan si pacar : line up gak bagus. Yak elahhh tau gitu aku pergi sama temen aja, padahal udah diajakin dari hari Jumat lo mau ke Joondalup. Naseb naseb. Nganggur maning nganggur maning. Si pacar pulang jam 3 sore trus late lunch bareng di rumah makan curry sisa td malem pake krupuk udang. Tuh krupuk uda expired bln 04-2010 tapi si pacar tetep maksa goreng aja. Bayangkannnn! Expirednya uda hampir setahun lalu. Pas dimakan enak juga kok tapi hahahahhaa. Rakus rakus. Trus tidur sore bentar, jam set7 pergi ke gereja Christ Church di Fremantle. Sempet mampir bentar sebelum balik rumah ke Southlands beli Utopia sama Nando's take away sih. Jam9 malem sampe rumah langsung makan kelaperan sambil nonton documentary movie tentang BP di SBS. Trus poto dulu dehhh sebelum dia browsing-browsing mau beli lens.

Udah gitu doang sih kilas balik tentang weekend kita berdua. Sekian dan terima kasih :)

Ciao.

2nd and 3rd day in here

Astaga ini masih di negara orang ya ternyata. Ini masih hari ketiga di sini. Yah masih agak malu-malu aku malu sama negara ini. Malu buat coba naik bis lagi ke city, malu buat coba naik train juga. Gak jelas nih kenapa kok gak ada nyali, padahal tahun lalu waktu ke sini, heboh banget tiap hari bawaannya pengen jalan-jalan terus. Mungkin karena tahun lalu ada mbak riris juga sama om tante. Kalo sekarang kan sendiri.

Kemarin seharian kan ditinggal sama pacar dari pagi jam6 sampe baru ketemu lagi jam11 malem. Udah mau mati kebosanan kemarin. Nonton dvd, browsing, chatting, makan, tidur-tiduran kerjaannya. Oh di sini, juga sekalian bersih-bersih sendiri lah. Nyapu, ngepel, nyeterika, nyuci piring, ngelipetin baju, sampe bersihin kasur harus sndiri. Nih badan mau rontok rasanya. Jadi pengen manggil Mbak Wati di Dieva Opak Surabaya buat minta tolong body spa aja rasanya. Kalo di rumah mah pokoknya tau beres, kan ada si Mbak Mi yang bersihin rumah. Ini nih bedanya Indo sama negara orang ini hahaha. Trus-trus lanjut soal kemarin malem, jam8an gitu si Wendy dateng ke rumah pacar jemput aku maen ke rumahnya trus ngajak minum Utopia. Nah ngobrol-ngobrol lama, gak nyadar kalo si pacar udah sms buat nanya kunci rumah. Amsyong ternyata kunci rumah kebawa sama aku. Begokkkk! Untung waktu sampe rumah, si pacar gak marah. Yah nggondok nggondok dikit lah trs aku nya langsung dimaafin kok hehehee. Thanks buat Wendy & pacar yang uda ngajakin keluar + nganterin pulang lagi hehee.

Eum, sekarang lagi tungguin pacar pulang kerja, katanya sampe sore. Rencananya mau jalan-jalan pulang nya dia kerja, tapi kok agak kesian gimana gitu. Tadi malem, dia baru tidur jam2 pagi gara-gara utak atik camera EOS nya gitu. Kita sharing lah teknik fotografi, diskusiin hasil jepretannya dia ma jepretanku. Udah tidurnya pagi banget, eh mesti bangun jam5 gara-gara mesti brangkat kerja jam6. Yah let's see lah ntar gimana. Kalo mis capek, ya uda gak usah jalan sih juga gpp.

Huahh, lanjut nonton Glee lagi aja deh.